SZIIIIIIIIIAAAASZTOK!!!!!
No time this
week.....but I have been feeling your prayers! Thank you and I know that the
Lord will not let this work be frustrated by the adversary! It goes forth! Our
baptism is scheduled for the 19th despite things that tried to stop it!! More
details next week about that!
Hough Elder
(Sorry for reals
though...I just have no time haha!)
Hey Mom!
I feel really blessed
to have you as a mom. Just gonna say that. I have definitely been feeling those
prayers. This week I grew. GREW. Spiritually, emotionally, and a little bit
physically haha! The AMHA (area
mental health advisor) is amazing, he gave me
some great Ideas and tips for how to think a bit differently when we have
negative thoughs, and are you a prophetess or something because I already read
and found the divine discontent talk and that is what helped me! I LOVE that
talk it is so true and the therapist also says that that is all about cognitive
traps satan uses against us to make us halt our progress. Super good talk, I
learned a lot from it. A LOT. I feel bigger or older spiritually if that makes
sense, because I had to find that knowledge and answer as to just not feeling
like enough. But, I will never be enough. That is the truth, And becauseI
leraned that I learned that I cant compare to anyone, cant be ashamed about not
being enough, and I cant expect and look up to my imperfect view of a perfect
me. It doesnt work like that. We will never reach it and never be our best
until after the resurrection, But anyway, I got some cognitive trap tips from
the AMHA and they are really good to know, and I use a couple of the questions
to think about why I am thinking about something that may be dragging me down,
and jsut a differnet way of thinking to redirect the thought process that satan
tries to get you on sometimes. But I am doing way better. It was a struggle,
and I basically at one point said to heavenly Father that I was letting go of
EVERYTHING, and just going to serve to my ability. I will never be able to do
everything to perfection, or else I would be transfigured at this point.
And that is the joy of the gospel is that we dont HAVE to be perfect now. It
comes LATER, but we are jsut asked to continuosly try to be a little bit more
everyday, and that eventually we will see how far we have come and how close we
have come closer to christ. It was a huge paradigm shift in my head that took
my I have to do more be more see more results attitude to I have the faith,
that doesnt change, but I ahve to trust that the lords will will be manifest
and that my weakness is made up by the Grace and Mercy of the Atonement of
Jesus Christ. Read ether 12, but from 19-the end, it is literally Moroni
feeling how I felt. MORONI STRUGGLED WITH THIS, so I feel a bit better about
myself haha!
So for starters, I
have a therapy light, I talked with the AMHA and he suggested a better diet so
I am just eating food and tracking it to see what comes from what, journal has
decreased but I am considering a video log on the 2 64 gb sd cards that dont
work here, and I am running a bit more, and I bought without pre knowledge the
2000 IU vit D. It was and is really just a perfect storm of everything crashing
down on me haha! The helyzet or situation in Tbánya has not been super good the
last 2 weeks but it just became really good, and yeah. The weather is kicking
my butt haha! But, if I have learned anything besides my huge answers to
personal questions and spiirtual questions that have literally just blown me
away and helped me to just chill out and do whats necessary, is that the body
is wack. EVERY SYSTEM AFFECTS EVERY SYSTEM. Physical spiritual, emotional and
mental are not just 4 areas, but 1 area that just melds with itself, this is
proof of that.
Fun story, on splits I
ran with the zone leader I was with in győr, so we got up a bit earlier to do
that, and we start and he says we doing the BIG circle. I had no idea
where we were going, but eventually we ended up on an on ramp in the middle of
NO WHERE and we saw the sign for the győr boundaries...UHHHHHHHHHHH....ok....so
we started running on the shoulder of the highway back towards győr, and then
the shoulder "DISSAPPEARED", and we were running head on into highway
trafficin the brightening light. I parkoured the rail and into the snow I was
so done with it haha! We get back in and our run was an hour, and the distance
was 7 miles or 11ooo kilometers, not bad! Considering I ahvent been RUNNING
consistently! Super good feeling for sure.
We also had a blizzard
in tatabánya this last week, literally nonstop snow and you couldnt see
anything, and we had a quick lesson in the morning and so I jumped out of the
shower changed and ran out the door and then by the time we got to the church
building my hair was FROZEN!! I was like jack frost it was really crazy haha!
I love the home
program come follow me, it sounds super dope, we dont havce abook with us yet
in tatabánya, but we will have one soon to study out of.
Fools mock, but they
shall mourn, my grace is sufficient for thee. Behold, if men come unto me I
will show unto them their weakness, and if men come unto me with a humble heart,
and with real intent, then will I make weak things strong unto them.
I know this is true. I know that on saturday one of Gods
Beloved Chldren is partaking in the first ordinance of salvation, and that my
joy is full, and I do boast in my god.
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