Monday, November 18, 2019

Jake Hough, 11.13.19--week 68


"The Final Ride…/Az Utolso Haladas…" 


"Behold, I [was] a disciple of Jesus Christ the Son of God, called to declare His word among His people, that they might have everlasting life." 

And I loved it. 

"...I know that the Lord God will consecrate my prayers for the gain of my people, and persuadeth them to believe in him, and to endure to the end, which is life eternal."

I never before imagined that the events that have transpired would have transpired the way they did. I do not believe anyone could. It has been so unorthodox, so different from any other experience I have had and I know many others will ever have, based solely on the uniqueness of it. I found myself regressing in symptoms of Narcolepsy around Monday last week, and it regressed consistently until I brought up the situation with the Mission President and His Mission nurse, who got me into a sleep specialist in Cincinnati. They agreed that the cataplexy side of Narcolepsy was beginning to show as I had already experienced it in the field, and they gave suggestions for new medication to try for a month. Consequently, those medicines were banned from the missionary medical catalog of allowed meds. Interestingly enough, So was my original daytime medicine. This means that Salt Lake either missed something which seems highly unlikely, or God made it possible to get to Cincinnati for the 21 days I needed to be there. That was very much a shock to hear, and yet not because of the immense surge of miracles we had in Springfield in under a transfer. We opened the Floodgates, and met so many prepared people, of which are most definitely getting baptized in the year. These select individuals were some of the most amazing people I have ever met, and I cherish each of those relationships. The sweetest experience came when our progressing friend with a date for baptism in December laid aside every sin which did easily beset him: the lack of money, the lack of food, the lack of job, the cold, the sickness he bore, the pride of his nature, all this so he could come to Sacrament Meeting and partake of the love of God and of the members comradery. We did not know if he would come, but when i saw him in the members car, dressed up all nice with the nicest clothes he possessed, neatly trimmed for the meeting, the joy within me was so great I almost shouted for joy! He had exercised His agency to change, to become MORE than his mortal circumstance seemed to be saying he could and was able to become. He was exercising faith in Jesus Christ unto Repentance. Despite my fatigue, I felt so happy to see him there, meeting everyone and loving the meeting. He is walking the beginning of the Covenant Path, and will therefore receive the desired blessings he needs should he continue in faith. That, was the best part of my final day as a missionary. I could not have asked for a better way to end a mission then to witness a dear friend come unto Christ with full purpose of heart. 

The emotions within me are confused. I am confused, afflicted on every side, but I am firmly rooted in my faith in Jesus Christ. I saw Him guide me throughout my adolescence, slowly and gently and promptly leading me towards the path that would prepare me for the experiences I have gone through and am currently experiencing. The lessons. The chastisements. The spiritual struggles to feel just a little bit of peace in the suffocating darkness of sin and sorrow. The almost comical amount of faith to some that yielded the most miracles whether they were desired miracles or miracles within me, they happened every time my faith was tested. The people. I LOVE people. I love them because they are trying. Trying to come to their Savior as I am. And I love it when we can rejoice in the simple truths of the restored Gospel of Jesus Christ. The simple, eternal truths that may seem malleable to some, yet are as established and ancient as the Priesthood of God. They will not change. We must change to obey and submit to them should we want any of the desired blessings associated with such truths and laws. And the second we start stepping in the right direction, the immediate goodness of God is right there to catch us and buoy us in the storms that will encircle our feeble efforts to return to the covenant path. Christ will not leave any of us comfortless or destitute. He will succor us as we walk in His pattern of meekness and humility. 

Above all, I give praise to my Heavenly Father and His infinite wisdom that I wish to glance. I cannot. But I know He is over this. The next phase of my life is going to be a ride, and it will be hard. But I know I can do all things which are expedient in Christ as I put my faith in Him and the Father. Thank you all. Thank you for your love. Your support. Your prayers. Your tears. Your cheers. Your diligence in believing in me, and supporting me on my 16 month journey. The mantle is officially released, and I feel the same amount of urgency to proclaim the gospel to all nations, just in a different way. The way that has been set before us repeatedly in the last 3 years of general conference addresses. We are missionaries for the Lord as commissioned disciples of Christ through our Baptismal covenant. Let us strive to be the missionaries He needs. For He is coming. And it will be sooner than we expect. 

I know this church is true above all things, and that the Book of Mormon, when acted upon is the catalyst for spiritual enlightenment and growth. Read and ask if it be true. You will receive an answer by the Holy Ghost. 

"I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith." Let us continue on in that faith. 

Jake Hough


I don't wish to detract from the Spirit and power of this faithful returned missionary, but I would like to share some thoughts about this transition from a parent's perspective.

When we found out Jake had to come home from Hungary back in May, I knew the moment President Sharp spoke the words, that Jake would not be returning to Hungary as a young missionary. Jared confessed to me that he felt Jake wouldn't return to the field at all as a full-time missionary. We were concerned about getting a diagnosis and helping him get treatment and there was no telling how long that process would take. But we kept those promptings to ourselves. As we continued down the path of the unknown, we supported Jake in his valiant and extensive efforts to get back to Hungary. Who were we to stop him? If it was meant to be, Jake would find a way.

Jake's health transformation on the lowest dosage of daytime and nighttime meds to manage his narcolepsy was incredible. Literally overnight. His sleep specialists were so pleased that we had immediate success. Prior to Jake starting the meds, we asked them how long it would take before Jake was "stable." They said the medications he began with could be the answer. Or we might need to try a couple different things. It would just depend on how Jake responded and how he felt. But at his four week follow-up appointment, after a wonderfully successful month, Jake was not required to stay on the meds for any certain length of time in order to see how he fared. We had found the silver bullet and we were elated. Jake had only taken a small detour from his missionary path.

The doctors in Austin graciously filled out the medical form required for missionary service and even drafted a personal letter about Jake's diagnosis, prognosis and described the medications he was on and explained how manageable narcolepsy is with the appropriate meds. Jake was recommended for full-time missionary service without any restrictions.

We sent all of the paperwork to President Sharp who added his own personal letter to those in Salt Lake City who would be reviewing Jake's case and then we waited.

On October 3rd, right before General Conference, President Sharp called to tell us that Jake had been reinstated as a full-time missionary and had been reassigned to the Ohio Cincinnati Mission. Honestly, Jake could have been assigned to labor in the outer realms of Siberia and he wouldn't have cared because he had been granted the opportunity to teach and preach the gospel again. He was thrilled!

And off he went to Ohio on Wednesday, October 16th.

Twenty-four days later, on Friday, Nov. 8th, Jake reached out to me and Jared so he could talk to us. Jared and I had just left the Houston Temple when we got his message.

He and his companion were on their way back to their area from seeing a sleep specialist in Cincinnati. Jake's symptoms were getting worse. He had also experienced cataplexy (a medical condition in which strong emotion or laughter causes a person to suffer sudden physical collapse though remaining conscious)--something we didn't expect because he had never exhibited any of the markers for cataplexy since he came home from Hungary. Jake said his nighttime sleep was becoming more fragmented and his daytime sleepiness was increasing. His current medications were no longer working. On top of all of that, Jake was battling some situational anxiety and depression with the steady decline of his health as he tried to process all of this.

For those who weren't aware, Jake's narcolepsy was triggered by the European H1N1 vaccine he received last November in Hungary. Because of this specific onset, his narcolepsy is a result of an autoimmune response to the flu vaccine, as opposed to a head injury, for example. When narcolepsy is classified as an autoimmune disease, Jake was told by the specialist in Ohio that cataplexy always follows. Usually developing three to four years later. Or three months in Jake's case. 

Jared and I were stunned to hear about these unexpected developments. Especially the cataplexy. Jake had never presented with any signs of cataplexy and the meds had been working so well. Yes, a mission is more rigorous than daily life. Yes, there were times when Jake was biking 70 miles in three days. While those factors were playing a part in Jake's fatigue, Jake didn't feel they were the cause of this quick decline. The sleep specialist in Ohio suggested two, stronger daytime stimulants and xyrem--a doozy of a nighttime med--one that we have resisted putting him on because of how highly controlled it is--and told Jake to talk to his parents about the possibility of using this stronger nighttime med.  We knew Xyrem wouldn't be allowed in the mission field so Jared and I told Jake that it wouldn't hurt to try the new daytime meds he was prescribed. He would know within days if they were working or not. And if, in the end, he had to come home, then that's what he would have to do and would be OKAY.

That night President Sharp let us know that Jake would definitely be coming home. Jake's mission president, President Ensign, also called us. After Jake's appointment that afternoon, President Ensign had Jake call Missionary Medical to see if the new meds he had been prescribed were on the approved list and learned they are not. Furthermore, we were surprised to learn that meds Jake took with him to Ohio are also NOT approved. How could that be? We gave all that information to President Sharp, who we know passed it along to Salt Lake City--to the missionary department, missionary medical, and the Brethren of the Church.

I pondered on all of these developments and while racking my brain, wondered: In our eagerness to help Jake get back out in the mission field, did we miss something? Was the answer from the Lord "No" but we didn't listen? We were completely transparent and forthcoming about everything. He was doing so well. A complete 180! So why did he go back out as a missionary for only three weeks?

Right about the time I was starting to berate myself, I received several comforting thoughts.

First, this missionary opportunity in Ohio was a gift for Jake. If he had never had a chance to be reinstated as a teaching missionary, he probably would have wondered for the rest of his life if he could have done it or not. Now he knows.

Second, this story from Elder Holland's life kept coming back to my mind, and is a powerful parallel to Jake's experience. (see Wrong Roads)

There are times when the only way to get from A to C is by way of B. Having grown up in southern Utah and enjoying all the wonders and beauties of southern Utah and northern Arizona, I wanted to introduce my son to that, and I wanted to show him places that I had seen and enjoyed when I was his age. So his mother packed a little lunch for us, and we took his grandfather's pickup truck and headed south onto what we call the old Arizona strip. Noting that the sun was going down, we decided we'd better get back. But we came back to a 
particular fork in the road, really the only one, that at that point was absolutely unrecognizable.

I asked my son to pray about which road to take. And he felt strongly that we should go to the right and I did as well. And we went to the right, and it was a dead end. We went 400, 500, or 600 yards, and it was an absolute dead end. Clearly the wrong road. We turned around, came back out, took the other road, and clearly the road to the left was the correct 
road. Somewhere along the way, Matt said, "Dad, why did we feel, after praying about it, that the right 
road was the proper one to take, the correct one to take, and it wasn't?" And I said, "I think that the Lord, His wish for us there and His answer to our prayer, was to get us on the right road as 
quickly as possible with some reassurance, with some understanding that we were on the right road and we didn't have to worry about it. And in this case, the easiest way to do that was to let us go 
400 yards or 500 yards on the wrong road and very quickly know, without a doubt, that it was the 
wrong road, and therefore, with equal certainty, with equal conviction, that the other one was the 
right road."

Jake got 500 yards down the road in Ohio before realizing that it was the wrong road. Now Jake knows with a surety that, for whatever reason, the mission field is not where the Lord wants or needs Jake right now.

Third, isn't it interesting to note that the Lord could have said no when the sleep specialists had to give their professional recommendation about Jake's physical abilities as a prospective missionary. The Lord could have said no when Jake's reinstatement request was submitted to Salt Lake. But He didn't. Somewhere, after his mission paperwork left College Station, the information about the medications Jake needed in order to manage the narcolepsy was missed or overlooked. Some would call that a "mistake." We prefer to see it as a "miracle." Another tender mercy from Heavenly Father because symptomatic or not, Jake would have eventually been sent home from his mission in Ohio when he tried to get his medications refilled. Yet he was given another small chance to do what he loves.

After we picked Jake up from the airport two days later, he told us that during those three weeks in Ohio, he and his companion, Elder Brown, had seen the highest numbers of teaching opportunities, Sacrament meeting attendance, and commitments to baptism (surpassing their goals) that either one of them had ever seen in their missions up to that point. Even the APs (missionary assistants to the mission president) were calling them about their crazy success and asked them incredulously, "What are you guys doing?" (You should ask Jake to tell you about their pattern of success.)  Jake's three weeks in Springfield, Ohio proved to be a tender mercy for not only Elder Hough and his companion, but for those he served and worked with as well.

There was something else that the Spirit brought to my attention. Trying to get five kids and myself to two different doctor's offices to receive flu shots is no small feat. So a couple years ago, I decided to skip the offices and just go to our local pharmacy and get them done all at the same time. Typically, we go on Columbus Day in October because the kids are out of school. Since Jake was home, he was going to join us. But a few days before that, he felt a strong, unexpected prompting to fly to Utah for the weekend. He had a very special weekend and flew home on Monday, Columbus Day, thus missing out on the group flu shot opportunity. We never had a chance to get him a shot when he got back because he left for Ohio two days later. When Jake was speaking with the sleep specialist in Cincinnati, he learned that he should never get the flu vaccine because it could restart the effects of narcolepsy all over again with greater intensity and make it much worse for him. Before Jake even left for Ohio, he was spared from getting the flu shot in College Station because we simply did not know about that horrible consequence. And if Jake's health hadn't started deteriorating when it did in Ohio, Jake would have received a flu shot in the mission field. I have no doubt that the Lord is watching over and protecting Jake through the recent turn of events.

As Jared and I drove to the Houston airport a week ago to pick up Jake, we were listening to talks from last month's general conference. I found great comfort in the words from Sister Craig who said:

Each of us has a different mission to perform, and at times the Spirit may call us in “another way.” There are many ways to build the kingdom of God as covenant-making, covenant-keeping disciples of Jesus Christ. As His faithful disciple, you can receive personal inspiration and revelation, consistent with His commandments, that is tailored to you. You have unique missions and roles to perform in life and will be given unique guidance to fulfill them. ("Spiritual Capacity")

Jake has been called "another way" and I'm strengthened by his eagerness and willingness to trust God to lead him. We are so proud of our first, young missionary who has returned with great honor and we know that he is only at the beginning of his efforts to help gather Israel and do his part in the wonderful work of salvation.  

~Jenn


"Íme, én [vagyok] Jézus Krisztus, az Isten Fiának tanítványa, akit
felhívtam, hogy hirdesse szavát az emberek között, hogy örök életük
legyen."

És imádtam.

"...Tudom, hogy az Úr Isten áldozza imáimat népem haszonszerzéséhez,
és meggyőzi őket, hogy higgyenek benne, és a végéig kitartanak, ami
örök élet."

Soha nem gondoltam volna, hogy az események, amelyek bekövetkeztek,
úgy váltak volna át, ahogy történt. Nem hiszem, hogy bárki képes
lenne. Annyira szokatlan, annyira különbözik a többi tapasztalatomtól,
és tudom, hogy sokan mások is ezt megteszik, kizárólag az egyediségén
alapulva. A múlt héten hétfőn regresszívnek találtam a narkolepszia
tüneteit, és következetesen regresszáltam, amíg fel nem vettem a
helyzetet a misszió elnökével és a misszió nővérével, akik
Cincinnatiban alvásszakértővé tették. Egyetértettek abban, hogy a
Narcolepsy kataplexiás oldala már megjelenni kezdett, mivel ezt már
meg is tapasztaltam a terepen, és javaslatot tettek új gyógyszerek
bevezetésére, amelyek egy hónapig kipróbálhatók. Következésképpen
ezeket a gyógyszereket betiltották az engedélyezett gyógyszerek
missziós orvosi katalógusába. Érdekes módon ugyanúgy volt az eredeti
nappali gyógyszerem. Ez azt jelenti, hogy a Egyhazi kozpontseg vagy
hiányzott valamit, ami rendkívül valószínűtlennek tűnik, vagy Isten
lehetővé tette, hogy eljuthassam Cincinnati-ba azon 21 napra, amikor
ott kellett lennem.

Nagyon sokk volt ezt hallani, és mégsem azért, mert a csodák óriási
hulláma volt, amelyeket Springfield-ben végeztünk egy átruházás alatt.
Megnyitottuk a Floodgates-t, és olyan sok felkészült emberrel
találkoztunk, akik közül minden bizonnyal megkeresztelkednek az év
során. Ezek a kiválasztott személyek voltak a legcsodálatosabb emberek
közül, akikkel valaha találkoztam, és ezeket a kapcsolatokat ápolom. A
legédesebb élmény akkor jött, amikor előrehaladt barátunk, akinek
decemberi keresztelő időpontja volt, minden bűnt félretett, amely
könnyen megbántotta őt: pénzhiány, ételhiány, munkanélküliség, hideg,
beteg betegség, büszkeség természetéből adódóan, mindezt, így
eljuthatott a szentségi találkozóra, és részt vehet Isten és a tagok
elvtársainak szeretetében. Nem tudtuk, hogy eljön-e, de amikor láttam
őt a tagok kocsijában, a legszebb ruháival öltözve, amelyek birtokában
voltak, szépen elkészítve a találkozóra, a bennem lévő öröm annyira
nagy volt, hogy szinte örömmel kiáltottam! Úgy gyakorolta ügynökségét,
hogy változtasson és TÖBB lehessen, mint halandó körülményei úgy tűnt,
hogy azt mondja, hogy képes és képes lenni. Jézus Krisztusba vetett
hitet gyakorolt a megtérésig. Fáradtságom ellenére olyan boldog
voltam, hogy ott láttam, mindenkivel találkoztam és szerettem a
találkozót. A Szövetségi Út elején jár, ezért megkapja a kívánt
áldásokat, amire szüksége van, ha hitben folytatja. Ez volt a missziós
utolsó napom legjobb része. Nem tudtam volna kérni egy jobb utat a
misszió befejezéséhez, amikor tanúja voltam, hogy egy kedves barátom
teljes szívvel jön Krisztushoz.


Az érzelmek bennem zavartak. Zavarban vagyok, minden oldalról
szenvednek, de Jézus Krisztusba vetett hitemben szilárdan gyökerezik.
Láttam, hogy vezetett engem egész serdülő koromban, lassan, óvatosan
és haladéktalanul arra az útra vezetve, amely felkészít arra a
tapasztalatra, amelyet átéltem és jelenleg tapasztalok. A leckék. A
megtámadások. A spirituális küzdelem a bűn és a szomorúság fojtogató
sötétségében csak egy kis békét érez. Azokra a szinte komikus
hitetekre, amelyek a legtöbb csodát hozták a csodákat, függetlenül
attól, hogy csodákat akarnak, vagy csodákat csináltak bennem, minden
alkalommal megtörtént, amikor hitemet teszteltem. Az emberek. Szeretem
az embereket. Szeretem őket, mert próbálnak. Megpróbálom a
Megváltójukhoz jönni, ahogy vagyok. És imádom, amikor örülhetünk Jézus
Krisztus visszaállított evangéliumának egyszerű igazságainak. Az
egyszerű, örök igazságok, amelyek némelyiknek megtéveszthetőnek
tűnhetnek, de ugyanolyan megalapozottak és ősek, mint Isten papsága.
Nem változnak. Meg kell változnunk, hogy engedelmeskedjünk, és alá
kell adnunk nekik, ha az ilyen igazságokkal és törvényekkel
kapcsolatos kívánt áldást szeretnénk. És a második lépésben a helyes
irányba lépünk, Isten azonnali jóságával van ott, hogy elkapjon
minket, és felrobbant minket a viharokban, amelyek körülveszik a
szövetségi útra való visszatérésünk erőfeszítéseinket. Krisztus
egyikünk közül sem hagyja kényelmetlen vagy szegényt. Segít bennünket,
amikor a szelídség és az alázatosság mintáján járunk. Mindenekelőtt
dicsérem Mennyei Atyámat és végtelen bölcsességét, amelyre pillantást
szeretnék. Nem tudok. De tudom, hogy őnek vége.

Életem következő szakasza lovaglás lesz, és nehéz lesz. De tudom, hogy
meg tudok csinálni mindazt, ami célszerű Krisztusban, amikor hittem
belé és az Atyába. Köszönök mindent. Köszönöm a szeretetet. A te
támogatásod. Imádkozzatok. A könnyek. Felvidítani. Az ön szorgalma
abban, hogy higgy bennem, és támogatsz engem a 16 hónapos utazásom
során. A köpenyt hivatalosan engedik el, és ugyanolyan sürgetőnek
érzem az evangélium hirdetését minden nemzet számára, csak másképp. Az
a mód, amelyet az elmúlt 3 évben a konferencia általános címének
ismételten megbeszéltek. Misszionáriusok vagyunk az Úrnak, mint
Krisztus megbízott tanítványai a keresztelési szövetségünkön
keresztül.

Próbáljunk lenni misszionáriusok, amire szüksége van. Mert ő jön. És
hamarabb lesz, mint amire számítunk. Tudom, hogy ez az egyház
mindenekelőtt igaz, és hogy a Mormon könyve, amikor cselekszik,
katalizátora a szellemi megvilágosodásnak és a növekedésnek. Olvassa
el és kérdezze meg, hogy igaz-e. A Szentlélek választ kap. "Jó harcot
folytattam, befejeztem a kurzust, megtartottam a hitet." Folytassuk
tovább ebben a hitben.

Szeretlek Benneteket!!

Jake Hough



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