Sziasztok
Mindenki!
Its been a rough week.
Im gonna be real and transparent. My sleep took a turn for the worst, I cant
get to sleep, I just doze for 8 hours, all the while hitting patches of intense
sleep paralysis like dreams of things in the room with me at night and it just
has NOT been pleasant haha! Literally an understatement. Terrible. It feels
like the life in me is slowly being drained out of me into some silo that I
cant reach to refuel and get back at it. But I cant find it. It is hidden from
my view. I have been up basically all night the last two days, and while
starting to not enjoy going to bed because of the events that transpire at
night for me, I fear going to bed, I talked to a friend who has been struggling
with similar symptoms and health problems, and they said that they listen to a
hymn to help them stay calm when the nights get a bit scarier.
11.
Abide with me; 'tis eventide.
The day is past and
gone;
The shadows of the
evening fall;
The night is coming
on.
Within my heart a
welcome guest,
Within my home abide.
22.
Abide with me; 'tis eventide.
Thy
walk today with me
Has
made my heart within me burn,
As
I communed with thee.
Thy
earnest words have filled my soul
And
kept me near thy side.
33.
Abide with me; 'tis eventide,
And
lone will be the night
If
I cannot commune with thee
Nor
find in thee my light.
The
darkness of the world, I fear,
Would
in my home abide.
O Savior, stay this night with me;
Behold, 'tis eventide.
O Savior, stay this night with me;
Behold, 'tis eventide.
I have also found strength in these words of peace and comfort,
told from the mouth of one who is suffering through the night of darkness. If
we plead and pray for the Savior's presence in the night, to give us comfort
and peace through the terrors of the night, be it an actual night or spiritual
one, we will receive according to our faith. I know this to be true.
Today I had the joy and opportunity to see my good friend brad
baptized into The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, taking his first
steps onto the covenant path. I was overfilled with joy and thanksgiving to my
God, for allowing me the opportunity to play a role in supporting him on his
way to the waters of baptism. He is a great man, and stalwart spirit. Im
excited to see what the Lord has in store for him. THIS is why we are here. To
bring others to the truth that we hold dear. If we don't share it, what are we?
I have also been spending time with my siblings, which has been
nice, we went fishing and I bought an outdoor projector to watch movies on the
giant screen outside when the sun goes down. Im excited to try it out and to
find something else to do with my brothers and sisters. I love them and am
enjoying being with them and just spending time with them.
I love yall, and I love my God. I know He is real, He is all
knowing, and loves us unconditionally only as a father could. He wants us to
learn how to be happy, even if that means allowing us to pass through the
gaping jaws of hell to learn it and gain that experience. He will never let us
go through something we cannot handle. Hold to that truth, and don't let go.
Szeretlek Benneteket!
Jake
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